jumbled thoughts

Today at work I spoke to a sweet old man who was very concerned about his wife.  Now he was calling to see what we could do or have him do to help his wife becuase she was in pain.  Now, his wife is in hospice care, and probably wont be long on the earth, but her husband loves her and just wants to do whatever he can to make her happy.....still.....no matter what. I had to make a few different call to the vna, her pcp, and then back to the husband, and every time he was so sweet. thanking me for helping, and blessing my day, and I just wanted to reach through the phone and give him a hug because the last time I spoke to him her just sounded sad. like he was accepting the fact that his wife, his soulmate probably isn't going to live much longer.
It made me think about my life, and how I want to be the wife that my husband will still do a ything for 50 years from now, the mom that my kids will want to please when the tables turn and they become our caretakers.
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On a lighter note, it seems that my little man is pretty much potty trained!  he still uses a diaper at bedtime, and if we will be out for a long time, but we ran an errand this afternoon, and then got home and went for a walk all with his "big boy car undies" and the srayed totally dry!!!
hooray!!!!!!   I cant wait to really save money not buying diapers...I have been buying diapers for over 5 years!!!  :)

well, I am going to go watch hoarders on tv...I know, its a bizarre reality show, but I just love watching those shows! 

today was a good day...

So a week or two ago I wrote about how I was not feeling like myself, and was angry and basically didnt want to be here, didnt want the responsibilities that I have and was pretty much envying everyone elses life.....
Well,  after writing I talked to my dr and I am trying a new medication. apparently the other one that I was on could cause extreme agitation...hmmm....well that was the problem....anyway.  Two weeks into new medication, and attempting to be positive and content with what I have and where I am right now....and I had a great day with my kids today!
it started with caleb getting up and peeing in the potty  (@6:30am) and then the kiddos played nicely together until I decided what we were gonna do this morning....we got ready and went to my moms (she was at work) and played outside, and swam in her pool, and decorated her driveway with sidewalk chalk.  then after lunch we headed home where they were supposed to take naps....nope. apparently they were having too much fun with mommy today....
so they got to lie in our bed and watch a movie while I started some cleaning.....well, this snowballed into a total overhaul of the upstairs. rearranging bedrooms, hanging hooks, sorting toys.....ahhhh......I feel calm when I go upstairs now, and dont mind looking around.  then we tackled the downstairs.  I organized book baskets, decluttered a little, and then found a fun cd from when I was teaching.....we danced away for awhile laughing and being silly, and it was so nice....I dont think I have enjoyed my kids like that for a long time.
then after we were all hot and sweaty we headed back upstairs where the air conditioner is to cool off where I was roped into playing barbies....actually it was kind of fun...I think I was still playing when athena had moved on to ponies  :)
then it was time for me to start dinner so the kiddos got to watch  sprout . then daddy came home and now he is throwing rubber balls at the kids while they try to run past him...kind of like dodge rock(  :o) christopher will get that)  anyway, they are laughing like crazy and its such a great end to a great day!
the other awesome thing is they will conk out pretty early with no naps, so josh and I can watch a movie and maybe have a conversation tonight  :)