a breath of fresh air

Today Josh was off, and we had talked about doing something fun today, but when we got up int he morning all we could come up with going to the mall for lunch and Josh looking for a pair of sneakers....so we did that, the kids got happy meals, and had a great time, then we just wandered a little bit in the mall, and came home because someone (caleb) started having a meltdown when we were done in some store that had a bunch of balls he was playing with.....we came home and me and the kids played some wii while josh watched a movie,  I got stuff out thawing for dinner, and then we donned our mud boots and headed out for an adventure....we ended up at the falls in winooski where we spent about an hour....it was super fun and even though we had a couple of boots get stuck in the much-safely returned to feet- saw lots of drowned worms, and thought some geese were gonna attack us, (they didnt) it was so much fun exploring, and seeing Josh and the kids interacting and watching him show them stuff and teach them about nature.
I made a nice dinner of bbq chicken. noodles and broccoli with cheese, and the kids had hot dogs,noodles and 1 broccoli  :)  As we were cleaning up we heard the magical sounds of "singing ice cream" (calebs  quote) so Josh took the kids out to pick their ice cream,and of course something for mommy and daddy too! they had baths, and have been sound asleep since 7:15
All in all, a really nice day, and Athena put it best when she said that she made nice memories today
This is the kind of day I needed. I needed a day to just have fun and enjoy being part of our awesome little family.  I feel like myself tonight, and actually was disappointed when bedtime came....of course it gave me time to play on facebook, and write  about my day....tomorrow I am excited to go church and then play with the monkeys until dinnertime when josh gets home.....now I am off to snuggle with my man and watch some ninja movie that he wanted to watch....oh well maybe I can get a backrub out of it  :)

looking at the "tiny fish" with Josh

Josh and his princess  

The Geese

A close up of the crazy water...it is sooooooo high!

melancholy and cold....

Lately I have been feeling melancholy....I think some of it has been due to 1) a lack of sleep, we are still struggling with Caleb 2) the dark rainy weather and 3) Feelings of overwhelmingness (is that a word) with lots of different things that are going on right now.
I am trying to enjoy the days that I am home with my kids, and I am, I just feel bad because I havent been "in the mood" to do lots of the fun things we usually do, honestly, I just want to go back upstairs, close the door and sleep.  I love my kids so much and I know I am not doing my best lately, but I just cant muster up the energy or the patience to do any projects.  I'm proud of myself if I get the house clean, meals made, and we go to the park or a walk in the woods....
We are planning a trip to michigan to see Joshs family who we havent seen since I was pregnant with Caleb so it will be nice for the kids to see their grandparents, and cousins and it will be nice for Josh to see his parents, and I am hoping that maybe this vacation is what I need....I dont know......
Today I am freezing.  I know, the last couple of days I felt gross I was so hot and sweaty, and of course the kids didnt sleep well cuz it was so hot, but today I have on a hoody and warm socks, and am just now starting to feel comfy  :)
well, I am going to go work on cleaning my kitchen and then plan to tackle the upstairs....These are the kind of days that make me think the reason I was so happy in Delaware is because I was home, and I was able to stay on top of everything that needed to be done.....don't know....just gonna have to really pray and try to get out of this slump....maybe tomorrow will be a sunnier day   :)

Morning thoughts

Early this morning I was laying in bed trying to squeeze a few more minutes of sleep in while my monkeys were talking to me and playing on the bed....but while I was laying there I had a whole blog post written in my head and it was really good, I was impressed with my sleepy self!  But then I got downstairs, made the kids breakfast, sat down to the computer to write, and.......its gone. I have not idea what it was that I was even thinking about.  Oh well....so instead I will impress you with something else.  LOL!!!!  :)
Yesterday we went to an egg hunt at a good friends moms house, so it was me and my two kiddos, and the rest of my friends family....there were a TON of kids there, as well as dogs!!  It was fun! we ate dinner, and talked for awhile and then the kiddos went outside to hunt for their eggs.  they were really good at it! my kids had me carry their buckets because they were too heavy for them! after the hunt we went in and had cake or cupcakes, and then I took my kids home because they were really tired.  but it was fun, something different and I am soooooo glad that I went!
watching both kids on this hunt I realized that I no longer have babies, I have big kids.  That thought made me both happy for the next stage, but sad because now my babies are not babies.....

Happy Easter everyone--make many memories with loved ones!!

grumpy....go away!

SO that is how I feel this morning......Totally a wrong attitude especially for a mommy, but this morning that is all I want to say. I am feeling very worn out and frustrated and quite honestly would just love to have a day all to myself........obviously, I need to just get over myself and enjoy this day that God has given me with my husband and children.
I love my children, and I love my husband, and my life is pretty good right now.  I havent gotten much sleep this week which never helps my mood. Today we have to go to the DMV to get the enhanced licenses so we can plan a trip to michigan to see family.  Do I really want to do this? No. Do I want to take my two kids and go to the DMV? No. But we will go, and it will be fine.......
So, anyway, this is not an entertaining or uplifting post but I needed to get it out of my system and I will try to post a better one next time.....I promise  :)
I am off to soak in a nice hot shower, and hopefully come out in a better mood, for my sake as well as my family sake  :)

rain,rain go away!!!!

I am trying not to be grumpy about the icky, dreary weather that we seem to  be keeping, but really, I am so ready for the sun to come back, and spring to really be here.  I love wearing flip flops, capris and t-shirts, I love not having to take an extra 10 minutes to get coats etc..on before we can go out the door......oh well, I am glad that we moved back to vermont,  but just a little more sun would be nice!  :)
I am sitting here this morning waiting for my keurig to warm back up so I can start my coffe, although my day started much,MUCH earlier than I would have liked....my little man had been doing super with no naps and sleeping all night, but the last 2 days he napped, and lets just say I didnt get much sleep...so today NO NAP!!!! we all need to sleep!! :)
I was thinking the other day how so many of my friends are either preggers, or just had babies, and it is crazy! I was worried that I would get the baby bug, but I love my two monkeys and I know that two is the perfect number for me, so while I do miss the tiny little baby stage I am loving this new toddler/preschool almost kindergarten stage that we are in.......and of course I will be holding my friends little babies!! I REALLY want to see my new nephew....hin hint....:)

Thinking...

Right away  I know that the title of this post probably scared some of you....yes I do think, no it does not usually result in any pain to myself or anyone else  :)
I have been off this whole week. Home with my monkeys 24/7 and I will admit the first couple of days were not  going to win me any mommy awards, but once we got the sleeping problem figured out the rest of the week has gone by too fast, and I am not really looking forward to dropping them off Monday when I go to work....
Before I had kids I was all about not working and staying home full time and being super mommy.  well, that isn't me.  I love working part time. I love the interaction with my (grown up) coworkers, and getting to wear my snazzy work clothes with accessories :)........but I also love snuggling in bed as long as we want, reading books, coloring endless pictures of princesses and cars, going to playgroup, keeping my house clean, and making real dinners.
I am struggling with the fact that now that Josh is making decent money at a job he really likes, we don't "need" me to work. I am working through all this right now, and I think some of it is that basically 1 paycheck goes for childcare every month. I am not complaining because I know it is cheaper than alot of other places, but it seems silly for me to work to only bring home 1 paycheck......now I know my coworkers read this, or at least I think they might...don't worry, I am not quitting my job, I like having the "extra" money to buy extra things....I am just thinking out loud so to speak.....
When we were in Delaware I stayed home, and it was fun, but at the same time awful...mostly though I think because I didn't have any friends there with kids that I could connect to and stuff....of course here my friends are all trying to move away now that I am back here, so who knows!!!  :)
Anyway, just kind of thinking and rambling....all in all I love my schedule and I love that it lets me have the best of both worlds!
I have some really funny pictures and videos of my kids that I really want to share with you, but they are on my phone, and I am so not talented with getting them from phone to computer.....so when josh gets home I will try to get him to do it for me  :)

Ouch!

So about a week ago I kind of walked into the couch and we arent sure but I think I may have cracked a bone in my second toe....yes I am a complete klutz, I know :)  so off and on I would bump my toe or wear heels and aggravate it, but really it seemed better.
Yesterday or the day before my whole foot --kind of like my arch ---started bothering me, so I chalked it up to starting to wear flip flops again, and figured my arch wasnt happy. so I wore sneakers.  Still was bothering me UGH....by last night when I got off the couch after watching the office (super funny!!) I literally could not even stand on my foot!  It kept waking me up during the night, and this morning I almost want to cry every time I have to take a step.....I have no idea what this could be. It doesnt appear swollen, but seriously the pain now radiates up over my foot towards my ankle........this is crazy. Josh told me to go to the dr, but I really dont see the point. they cant see anything, and then I would have to get an xray....bringing two kids thats not going to happen!...anyway, today will be a tylenol day and then we will see ....I just had to vent/whine about it and see if anyone had any advice/ideas as to what is going on with my poor little foot!!!

Stinky Parts

LOL!  What a way to start my blogging back up....stinky parts. In case some of you didnt already know, we are kind of an odd little family.  Since day 1 with Athena, I realized that for such a small baby she had really stinky toes. well, it became a bit of a game with her when I would change her diapers I would sniff deeply and then pull away saying "pee-yew stinky toes" she would laugh and laugh and then stick her feet back in my face to do it again.....that kind of continued with caleb and we would do the same thing except Athena would stick her little nose right in there and sniff rather deeply and then announce "tinky toes"
why am I sharing this with you? well tonight we were playing and I had taken off my flip flops (so no sweaty feet today)  caleb walked over bent down and sniffed a couple of times then announced "mama tinky toes" well we all laughed about this since it was rather random and funny....Now caleb has decided to start smelling other parts of people : toes,feet,hands,ears, and embarassingly....bums. My kids take baths together...I know some people are offended by this, and others think it is wrong, but I grew up doing that (obviously at a certain age this will stop) and they have fun playing together...anyway, while the tub was filling and my kids were stripping Caleb decided to sniff his sister backside and then annouce "tinky bum tister" I had to walk away and giggle, yes I did, it was funny (c'mon hes 2!)...  please dont judge me,he did this all on his own and we have since discussed that we are people and we dont smell other peoples bums etc.... I think he got it...we will see  :)
so anyway, enjoy a glimpse into my crazy life....if I offended I am truly sorry this was not meant to offend, only to entertain  :)

Lots of changes

so this is a really quick post to let everyone know  a few things
1) I changed the title and look of my blog (athena helped me come up with the title)
2) I am sooooo sorry for my lack of blogging lately, things have been kinda busy
3) I will post a better, longer post later....I promise :)
4) This is quick because I have to pick up my social little girl from a playdate
5) Now that life feels like it is starting to get back to "normal" I have my blogging bug back so I will be posting more than once a month!! :)

"talk" to you all later!!!!  Dont give up on me, I am new to this.....