Thinking...

Right away  I know that the title of this post probably scared some of you....yes I do think, no it does not usually result in any pain to myself or anyone else  :)
I have been off this whole week. Home with my monkeys 24/7 and I will admit the first couple of days were not  going to win me any mommy awards, but once we got the sleeping problem figured out the rest of the week has gone by too fast, and I am not really looking forward to dropping them off Monday when I go to work....
Before I had kids I was all about not working and staying home full time and being super mommy.  well, that isn't me.  I love working part time. I love the interaction with my (grown up) coworkers, and getting to wear my snazzy work clothes with accessories :)........but I also love snuggling in bed as long as we want, reading books, coloring endless pictures of princesses and cars, going to playgroup, keeping my house clean, and making real dinners.
I am struggling with the fact that now that Josh is making decent money at a job he really likes, we don't "need" me to work. I am working through all this right now, and I think some of it is that basically 1 paycheck goes for childcare every month. I am not complaining because I know it is cheaper than alot of other places, but it seems silly for me to work to only bring home 1 paycheck......now I know my coworkers read this, or at least I think they might...don't worry, I am not quitting my job, I like having the "extra" money to buy extra things....I am just thinking out loud so to speak.....
When we were in Delaware I stayed home, and it was fun, but at the same time awful...mostly though I think because I didn't have any friends there with kids that I could connect to and stuff....of course here my friends are all trying to move away now that I am back here, so who knows!!!  :)
Anyway, just kind of thinking and rambling....all in all I love my schedule and I love that it lets me have the best of both worlds!
I have some really funny pictures and videos of my kids that I really want to share with you, but they are on my phone, and I am so not talented with getting them from phone to computer.....so when josh gets home I will try to get him to do it for me  :)