melancholy and cold....

Lately I have been feeling melancholy....I think some of it has been due to 1) a lack of sleep, we are still struggling with Caleb 2) the dark rainy weather and 3) Feelings of overwhelmingness (is that a word) with lots of different things that are going on right now.
I am trying to enjoy the days that I am home with my kids, and I am, I just feel bad because I havent been "in the mood" to do lots of the fun things we usually do, honestly, I just want to go back upstairs, close the door and sleep.  I love my kids so much and I know I am not doing my best lately, but I just cant muster up the energy or the patience to do any projects.  I'm proud of myself if I get the house clean, meals made, and we go to the park or a walk in the woods....
We are planning a trip to michigan to see Joshs family who we havent seen since I was pregnant with Caleb so it will be nice for the kids to see their grandparents, and cousins and it will be nice for Josh to see his parents, and I am hoping that maybe this vacation is what I need....I dont know......
Today I am freezing.  I know, the last couple of days I felt gross I was so hot and sweaty, and of course the kids didnt sleep well cuz it was so hot, but today I have on a hoody and warm socks, and am just now starting to feel comfy  :)
well, I am going to go work on cleaning my kitchen and then plan to tackle the upstairs....These are the kind of days that make me think the reason I was so happy in Delaware is because I was home, and I was able to stay on top of everything that needed to be done.....don't know....just gonna have to really pray and try to get out of this slump....maybe tomorrow will be a sunnier day   :)