who is this person?

I am not going to get too into it becuase...well, just because. but I have been struggling lately with alot of things.....one of those being experiencing some side effects to medication that have not been pleasant.  THat being said, I am in the process of working with my dr on "fixing" me so that I feel more like myself again.  Last night I had a moment where I was literally afraid to be with myself....I honestly didnt know what I would do, and that scared me. I am sorry to be kind of vague, but I feel "safer" that way...you never know who reads these things :)
I had some time out alone the other night and felt a little better, but it wasn't the "miracle" I was hoping it would be.
Right now I am not being the person, wife, friend, mother etc... that I want to be, but I am working on getting back to "normal"  so please bear with me..I havent laughed, a big happy belly laugh in months....I love my husband and he has put up with so much in our relationship, and he always loves me, and takes care of me, and that just makes me love him more.
so, now that I have unloaded a little part of my mind, I feel better, and I think when Josh gets home we are going to get a pizza and go to the park....