venting.......

first off for some reason I felt off all day.  not mad, not happy, not really tired,just irritable and antsy....anyway, I picked up our yummy free pizza for dinner tonight and walked in the door expecting to see happy kids, and maybe even a hi honey how was your day...instead athena started crying because she wanted to open the door for me, caleb started crying because he wanted me to hug him but I was hugging athena, and josh, well he sat on the couch and was looking at calebs sticker book......
then, I looked around and realized that the 3 things I had asked J to do today (since he was off and I was at work) didnt get done.  now before you think I asked too much here is what I asked....1)empty all the trash and take it out 2) bring in the table from my car and 2 drawers up to calebs room 3) vaccum(sp?)
so, after the kids settled down and started eating I stupidly tried to be wonder woman and get everything done because I cant stand starting my day off with chaos and mess.....yep. I did the trash brought in the table from my car, brought things upstairs but did not vacum becasue I had to find my inhalor and sit on the deck for awhile....yeah, gave my self a stupid asthma attack.  yes this could have been prevented if hubs had done some things to help me, but did I have to wonder woman and do it all before 7pm? No. it would have been there when I got up tomorrow, or even later tonight......oh well I guess I learned my lesson....don't expect too much which can result in pleasant surprises, and dont overdo things becuase my asthma attack scared my girl who thought I was going to die cuz I couldnt breathe....
I am thankful for the servant heart my girl has. she kept checking on me, and bringing me stuffies, and water. she is the sweetest little thing, and I love that she is mine!!
anyway, I feel better now that I got that off my chest. please dont think that I am trying to bash my hubbny, I just was very frustrated and since I was feeling off all day anyway something in me literally snapped.....well since I cant do much else Im gonna lay in bed and read and go to sleep somewhat early so that tomorrow I can play with my monkeys....thank goodness we get new days so we can start over!!